Thursday, February 11, 2010
Decide to post what i actually wanna say here since fb doesnt have enough space...Well...ytd...he came & talk to me wanting to clear the misunderstanding...but i sort of put him off...today...ive decided...he & she shall never know the truth...which means thats the end of our f/s...u 2 can take it as im evil, i don really treasure this f/s...but...i just & don know how to say it out...i do admit it may b my fault that we r lead to this...but its just sth just sth else...i don really wanna u 2 to know & i really don wish to mention it out...cos it may even make things worse...so let this truth b hidden 4ever...& that u 2 had only LOST A friend...as for me, i had LOST TWO friends at the same time...thats it...IM SO SORRY...&...im also sort of sick & tired to help my friends to organise an outing to celebrate their individual birthdays...for the past many yrs...it had always been me organinsg...asking ppl out...having to sms SOOO many times to find a common date where MOST of us can make it...i give up on this 'post'...i shall NOT do it for this yr anymore...i shall let some1 else do it liao...if theres no1 who do it...then its too bad...of cos i will still remember u all birthdays de, by smsing wishing u all...but organising an outing...not anymore for me...*which by means that i may not wish to celebrate my OWN birthday as well* Getting to find my friends for a normal gathering as well...i doubt i will do so anymore leh...its either u all come find me...or i think we wont get in contact at all...thats it...yes...im totally sick & tired of really having to go "eh r u free" here & there...after reading to here...if u r thinking ive become such a 'what' person leh...then b it...i REALLY DON CARE ANYMORE...Lastly...i do really find myself been so rely on some1 lately...whenever i feel down or angry or what...i will just sms that some1...even if that some1 don think im a nuisance...i do hate myself for doin this...like ppl themselves gt no problem like that...cos if its me...if theres some1 who do this to me...i do & will find that some1 a nuisance lor...i shall stop doin so FROM NOW ONWARDS...i must depend on myself to fight my own sadness/angryiness leh! KELLY SHALL GO ON WALKING IN THIS WORLD ALONE...
7:17 PM WriTTen By KellY Y